Pairing: Jim/Sam Kirk, m/m, K/S

Code: NC-17, incest

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Summary: Some sort of a sequel to “Operation Annihilate”

Disclaimer: Paraborg/Viacom owns the whole Star Trek universe. I only borrowed a little part of it for some fun. No moneymaking, no offence of copyrights are intended. The story is mine and it is just fanfiction.

If you are under age, please stay away. If you have a problem with m/m-sex and relationships, then look elsewhere for your entertainment. English is not my native language, so please be patient with my mistakes. T’Boy did a really great job to correct my errors, not to mention all the suggestions she gave. My greatest gratitude to her. For all remaining errors, blame me. And thanks for your support, Lady Charena.

When Karmen started the KFF I asked her to erase Jim’s relatives from the pairing-list. And I said I could never imagine any story between Jim Kirk and his brother. But as always in my slash-life, in the end “no” means “yes”. My mind couldn’t stop thinking about it and now – taadaaa – here is the result. I’m aware, of course, that it is a difficult topic. If you don’t like it do not read it.

Changes in time are marked with /*/*/

Jim Kirk stilled his restless movements as Spock’s arms came around his shoulders. The Vulcan drew him closer in the bed, then asked “Are you not able to find sleep, Jim?”

“No.” Jim snuggled even closer in the embrace, making sure he could feel Spock’s warm body on every possible spot of his own. So he hoped to assure himself that Spock was alive and well. “This was a horrible day, but I’m so thankful that you’re okay. If I had also lost you… I don’t know, what I…” His voice trailed off.

“But I am alive, Jim.” Hot lips proved the truth of the words with a lingering kiss.

Jim groaned. ”Thank god for this. I just wish Sam had had the same luck.” Unmasked grief was in his voice.

“I grieve with thee about your brother and sister-in-law. I can imagine how hard it is for you to lose such close relatives. And if you feel a need to talk… I feel that there is something special troubling you now.”

Kirk nodded. “Yes, you’re right. There’s something. Sam and I – there was more than just brotherhood between us.” He sighed. “There is something I never found the courage to tell you, but if we will soon become bonded you will nevertheless see it. Probably it’s better if I tell you now.” He turned around to face Spock. “Please promise me that you will not be offended by this. I can’t stand the thought that you might reject what happened.”

Spock nodded his understanding. “Jim, I would never do that. Whatever you tell me, I am sure I can deal with it.”

Jim eased into a comfortable position then began to speak: “It was a summer in Iowa. I was fifteen. It was the year before I joined the Academy. My mother had to undergo a surgery and was in the hospital for two weeks. Sam came to the farm for his holidays. He had already started at university but mom ordered him home. It seemed that she didn’t trust me if I had to be alone. One night…”

/*/*/

The young Jim Kirk sighed with resignation. Sleep definitely wouldn’t come this night. It was too hot inside and outside the house. He just was about to reach for the lamp and a book as a loud groan from the neighboring room startled him.

Sam was sleeping there, but obviously there was something wrong with him. Probably he felt ill. As Jim heard another moan, he hurriedly stood up and rushed out. The door to Sam’s room was slightly open, so he could easily slip inside. It was dark inside but the moonlight came through the window and illuminated the scene on the bed.

Jim stopped dead in his tracks, his eyes wide open. Sam was kneeling on his bed, his hands clasped tight around the edge. His eyes were closed, with his head thrown back and mouth open – moaning loudly again.

And behind him knelt Marc Sanders, the dark-haired son of the neighboring farm and he was – fucking Sam.

Jim had known the 20-year-old guy from childhood. He’d been Sam’s best friend for years. They had done a lot of things together, but this… he couldn’t believe what he was witnessing. His older brother and another man!

Jim bit his lower lip to stop himself from moaning aloud. Both young men were absolutely fixated on each other – they didn’t notice their observer. Jim’s eyes were fixed on the scene. He knew he should walk out immediately, but he couldn’t. He was glued to the spot and so he watched… until both men collapsed exhausted.

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“What’s troubling you, Jimbo?” Sam Kirk asked, observing his brother. Jim had seemed preoccupied with his thoughts the whole day. “Come on, tell me!”

Jim gnawed it his lower lip, pondering if he should tell Sam what he had witnessed. He just felt that he had to speak about it – otherwise it would eat him alive. “I saw you last night as Marc Sanders fucked your ass.”

For a moment Sam Kirk’s face showed true surprise, but his voice was calm as he spoke. “You got a problem with it?”

Jim shrugged his shoulders. “No… I don’t know. How can you do this? I thought that you and Aurelan… were serious.”

“Jimmy, what I have with Aurelan is something completely different. I don’t know how I can explain it to you. No women is able to give you what another man can:”

“Sure, a cock up the ass.”

Sam shook his head. “No, that’s not what I mean. It’s something special between men. They are equal. They understand each other. With Marc I’m able to let completely let go. He knew what I like ‘cause it’s the same for him. There is more than just ecstatic sex. There is a mutual understanding between two people of the same kind.”

Sam surveyed his brother. “You haven’t had a man in you so far, Jim, have you?”

“No. Gary wanted to but I didn’t.”

Sam had the opinion that that had been the right decision. He definitely didn’t like Jim’s arrogant classmate Mitchell, but that wasn’t the point now. “Why?”

“I couldn’t. I mean, I’m not a woman. I’m the one who fucks. I’ve got to be on top.”

Sam smiled. “Oh Jimbo, you’ve still much to learn much. It’s not a shame to give yourself to somebody sometimes. You just can’t always take from the other, you’ve got to give something from you, too, if it’s going to be a good relationship. And you need to let yourself go from time to time.”

He reached for Jim’s hand. “Come on, I think it’s time that I show you something.”

///

Jim thought he was dreaming as he found himself on Sam’s bed – naked. His brother knelt beside him. “Sam, we can’t…”

“Why not? It’s better you learn from me than from others. And I’ve the feeling that you would learn it some day. I’m not able to explain it further but there’s something about you that makes me think you would be drawn to at least one other man some day.”

Jim discovered with surprise that he started to become erect as Sam just stroked along the sensitive skin of his inner thighs. On the other hand – since he had entered puberty often the slightest thing made him horny. He seemed to be one big hormone on feet. Although all his experiences so far had been with girls, he had to admit he’d had thoughts about boys, but hadn’t found the courage to act on them.

Sam’s lips were now closed around his cock, sucking him until he was unbelievably hard. Jim couldn’t help himself from moaning and tossing around the bed. It felt damn good what Sam was doing to him. His brother seemed to know exactly where he liked most to be touched. And the mouth on his organ just felt incredibly good.

Then Sam’s hands traveled underneath Jim’s body and one oiled finger teased his opening. Surprised, Jim gasped for air as the finger suddenly pushed into him. A second one soon followed – stretching him carefully and arousing him even further.

Jim knew he would come soon, if Sam continued this. The sensations which swept his whole bod, were wonderful. As a third finger entered him it was too much. He cried out and spurted his seed into his brothers eagerly swallowing mouth.

Sam raised his head and smiled. “You’re always so impatient, Jimmy.” With half-closed eyes Jim watched his brother preparing his own cock.

Then Sam turned him around and raised him to his knees. Jim believed he saw stars as his brother entered him...

/*/*/

“…later I fucked him.” After Jim had finished his story silence rose in the cabin for a while. Finally he continued. “I’m aware that incest is still a big taboo in most cultures. We didn’t ever do it again, but there’s always been a close rapport between us since. And he was right, I had a lot to learn, and was always thankful for his help.”

Jim took a deep breath. “I’m not sure, if I would be able to give myself completely with body and soul to you without this experience. I always wanted to be on top. In every meaning. But suddenly with Sam it felt right to let go, to let another rule over me. On the other hand I always tried to compete with Sam. I adored him but at the same time I wanted to be better than he was. And then he didn’t have any problem with letting his little brother fuck him. I learned then that there’s no shame in giving yourself to a person you love and care about.”

He turned to face Spock. “I can’t explain it better what that all meant to me, Spock. I’m not sure, if you’re able to really understand…”

The Vulcan stopped him. “I understand better than you may think, Jim. I, too, had once an older brother…”

-end-

continued in A Summer in Shi’Kar by Lady Charena