Destiny's Irony
T'Len
2001
Series. DS9
Pairing: Jadzia/Keiko, Ezri/Bashir,
Bashir/O'Brien and Jadzia/Worf impl.
Code: NC-17
Feedback: to tlen11@freenet.de
Summary: Ezri Dax has a liaison with Julian Bashir,
but both carry hidden secrets.
Sequel to “Talks
and Tribble-ation” and “Another Pair of
Helping Hands”
Part of the Femme-Fuh-Q-Fest at http://www.geocities.com/femme_fuhq_fest
Disclaimer: Paraborg/Viacom owns the whole Star
Trek universe. I only borrowed a little part of it for some fun. No
moneymaking, no offence of copyrights are intended. The story is mine and it is
just fanfiction.
If you are under age, please stay away. If you
have a problem with m/m-sex and relationships, then look elsewhere for your
entertainment. English is not my native language, so please be patient with my
mistakes. T'Lin did a really great job to correct my errors, not to mention all
the suggestions she gave. My greatest gratitude to her. For all remaining
errors, blame me.
"Julian, this can
happen. No need to worry." Ezri Dax' placed a tender hand at Julian
Bashir's shoulder, but the doctor just rolled to the other side of the bed,
murmured "I'm sorry,
The young woman shook her
head, although her partner couldn't see it. "You don't have to apologise,
Julian. You're a doctor, you know that temporal impotence can happen after too
much stress. The war… Captain Sisko's vanishing.
"No!" He
interrupted her harshly. "That's not the reason."
Ezri sat upright. "You
mean it's because of me? Am I not appealing enough for you?"
"No... yes... I don't
know."
Ezri sighed. It seemed that
what was supposed to be a pleasant, private evening once again would end as a
counseling session. "Julian, I am your friend, but more importantly, I am
a professional counselor - whatever is troubling you, you can tell me."
Julian sat up too, presenting
his back to Dax. "It's because of Miles."
"I see." Again
small hands reached for the mans back. "He was your best friend and you
miss him. Understandable."
"No, that's not
all." He took a deep breath. "Miles was my lover for nearly seven
years."
Surprised, Ezri gasped for
air. "I didn't know this" she finally managed to say.
"Nobody knew. We were
very discrete... and now he's gone."
Bashir closed his eyes as all
the feelings of loss and treachery he felt when Miles told of his plans to go
back to Earth with his family overwhelmed him once again.
He could feel Ezri's
comforting presence. "You can tell me everything" she repeated.
Finally, he found
the courage to speak of the
one person who had been on his mind. But
his voice was shaky as he started.
"It was love. I mean
true love. At least from my part. And I think he loved me, too. It wasn't only
sex and desire. I wished so much that he would confess himself openly to me.
But he had his wife and the kids. Miles always feared Keiko would instantly
leave the station if she found out. She wasn't happy here, everybody knew this.
He thought that with all the insecurity of the situation during the last years,
that if she went to Earth he would never see his children again. And he loves
Molly and Kira-Yoshi more then me. I had hoped so much that when the war was
over we could really be together. But now ... I lost him forever."
Julian rose to his feet and
reached for his clothes. "I have to be alone. Excuse me."
The rough laughter which
escaped Ezri Dax' shortly after the door had closed behind Bashir sounded very
much like Jadzia. "That's destiny's irony" the Trill murmured. She
closed her eyes as memories which weren't her own, and yet
were, came to the surface of
her mind.
/*/*/
Jadzia threw her head back as
tender lips sucked her right nipple in a wet mouth. She thought that they
couldn't become more erect then they already were, but it seemed that she was
wrong. I wet trail was made from one breast to the other, then the left nub was
sucked to equal hardness.
Eagerly she combed her hands
in the long silky dark hair and pushed the head deeper down her naked body.
Sounds of ecstasy escaped her again and she became wetter then she already was,
as the hungry mouth finally was on her.
It took Jadzia a while to
realise that it was her own cry which still rang in her ears. Slowly the waves
of orgasm ebbed down and she opened her eyes. Something was wrong, she felt it
clearly- and then she knew. "You haven't come, Keiko. Let me…"
She reached for the other
woman but her hands were roughly shoved away. "No!" Keiko stood up
and reached for her clothes. "This has to end. Here and now.
The Trill sat up and gave her
partner an appraising glance. "Why? What's wrong with you."
Keiko turned her back to Dax
before she quietly answered. "I'm pregnant again."
Jadzia gasped for air.
"So you still sleep with Miles?" she whispered.
A shoulder-shrugging was the
remark. "He's my husband, what should I do?"
"Be careful and not let
him impregnate you again. Or better: Just leave him and come to me." She
didn't hide her annoyance.
Keiko turned around and
sighed. "I can't. And you can hardly think that the three of us can live
in pleasant co-existence here on the station. As for the pregnancy: I hadn't
planned it, but I'm happy getting a second child."
"We can leave. You've
always said that you don't like to be here. We can apply for some science
mission elsewhere in the federation. Something which isn't risky for you and
the baby." A slight flicker of hope swung in Jadzias voice.
"And what's about Molly?
Miles would not allow me to take her to some backward planet. And I
can't leave my daughter alone
here." Keiko, too, had become angry. "I love you, Jadzia and I love
to be intimate with you, but
it has to stop - if not for our sake, then for the sake of my daughter
and my unborn baby."
Jadzia sighed with
resignation. "So, it's really over?"
"Yes. I'm so
sorry." The despair was clearly audible as she left without looking back.
/*/*/
Ezri blinked as her thoughts
came back to reality. The day after that, Jadzia had decided to set her eyes on
Worf. As a Thrill – and with the memories of all her former hosts - bisexuality
was part of her nature. Worf’s rough Klingon sexuality had been appealing to
her after Keiko’s gentleness. But now ...
Thousands of ifs and whens
crossed Ezris mind. If only one of the O'Brien's had found the courage to speak
about his or her true feelings. Four people could be happy now. If Jadzia
hadn't married Worf, if she hadn't had a wish to carry his child, she wouldn't
have been in the shrine as Dukat...
The Trill sighed.
"Probably Jadzia would still be alive and I would have less problems."
She wasn't sure from which of
Dax' former hosts she had acquired the words with which she now cursed destiny
- and human cowardice.
-end-
continued in Take your second Chance